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So, this whole roommate/living in student housing thing is getting on my last nerves. “Why did you do it in the first place?”, you may ask. Well, I "did it for the experience" is what I will tell each and every one of you reading, well because it's partly true. Biggest reason: I couldn’t find a place on my own fast enough to not have to be put in student housing.

So many issues going on right now, and I'm afraid to speak up and say something about it. For starters, the other 3 roommates have the sink filled with dirty dishes. Sometimes there's food left in the dishes they throw in the sink. The counter and island are a mess, and it seems like every time I clean it, minutes later is a mess all over again. They don’t clean up their own messes. Sarah doesn't fill the empty ice cube trays after she uses them up (or if there are still cubes, doesn’t put it back in the freezer). I stepped into a puddle of water from someone who dropped an ice cube or 2 on the floor and didn’t clean it up... I'm the only one who's mopped this place since moving in August. Sarah sweeps sometimes, but I do majority of it.

I feel like I'm always cleaning and never have time to do my homework. When I have my kitchen classes, I'm washing dishes there, and when I get home I'll be doing dishes here... I get home from work, and again am cleaning up here. Its never ending and I don’t know how to say "PLEASE, WILL YOU GUYS HELP OUT. I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE LIVING HERE" *while, insert a few hundred swear words*, nicely...

I have space issues. I currently have my curtains drawn across my bed, but even then that doesn’t stop Sarah from pulling them back and talking to me... : She's always home, except when she's in class or gone home for breaks (which the next one isn't until the end of March). She doesn't have a job, and her class schedule is very similar to mine, and we have the same days off. I think she has one friend here in Pitt, but never goes to visit or see them, and she’s always here (wait, I already said that). Along with space issues (and my OCD), I have my stuff put away neatly and is organized. Her stuff is shoved here and there. She moves her stuff onto all of my stuff or makes its way into my areas (I hardly ever can get to my closet thing because she’s always got something in front of it... and I cant move it). She puts dirty clothes on our sink in the bathroom, and one day I walked in to see her dirty clothes on top of my TOOTHBRUSH : ewwwww ewww ew : I also find her crap on my side of the counter, and it's getting very annoying.

Along with space, is sharing things that cost money. I don’t mind her using my printer, but she's got to help with ink costs. Food, I don’t mind sharing, but since I don’t eat her food, I would appreciate that the food of mine that she does eat, that she replaces it or gives me money for it or something. The other day she asked if we have bread here, and I told her no we don’t. Which is true, WE don’t have bread, but I do. The good stuff I can only buy in Michigan, and I'm down to 2 loafs of it... I’m not sharing that stuff... I've stopped making dinner for 2+ people, and if I make more than 1 serving, I make sure I put the leftovers away ASAP so she doesn’t help herself.

I feel like a bitch, not doing her dishes now when I have been all last quarter, and not sharing my food. But I don't have the money to be sharing food, nor the time to do everyone’s flipping dishes anymore. I can't keep this up. I am slowly losing my mind over these things. I'm going to talk to Mama Dee (one of our security guards) today when I bring her a piece of cake... she's someone I can talk to about anything who's here in Pittsburgh and not far away in Michigan.

I was fighting an anxiety attack last night due to this (and a few other) issues. I feel an onset of one coming today. I'm fighting getting up and doing all the dishes myself (and telling myself that if I do them all, then everyone will just assume I'll do the dishes the rest of the time).

I have a friend coming over probably on Friday, and I have another friend and his daughter coming over sometime this weekend, and I'm embarrassed to have them come over and see this place.




Lessons learned:
1. I don't share very well
2. I have control issues
3. I have severe anger issues
4. After my lease is up, I am NOT having a roommate nor am I looking at places that are looking for one.
5. See what being "alone" since 2003 has done to me... lol
6. OCD sucks... and I had to make a number 6 or it wouldn't feel right.